March 16th, 2010

"Morningstar"

Morningstar is song written from the perspective of Lucifer’s roommate in heaven. The Latin translation of ‘Lucifer’ is “light-bearer” somewhere in the Bible he’s referred to as the morning star. I looked it up, here is the passage “How you have fallen from heaven, O morning star, son of the dawn!”.  Since I grew up Jew-Ish, I didn’t learn about the devil or hell, however if you’ve ever been to a Orthodox Seder (and you’re not Orthodox) it’s not too hard to imagine that Hell is probably something close to that. Personally, I subscribe to the Sartre version of hell. I hear they just made No Exit into a movie. I’m sure it’s gonna suck.

I stil don’t have the songs sounding like I want to. Maybe this recording one mic to tape in my apartment is a bad idea. I might have to go back to my studio. What’s the point of doing this if they sound crappy?

I don’t have an appropriate picture for this post so here is a picture of me at 15.

Dear Morningstar how are you
been thinking about you since the day you left
I kinda miss your antics
and the way you always made me laugh
and I’ve been thinking about the last thing
you told me before you fell
better to experience a failure
than always do it well
it’s freezing here in heaven
hope you’re warm and happy raising shit in hell.

I was frightened when I first arrived
was nervous and I didn’t know a thing
ignored by Mike and Gabriel
you welcomed me and helped me into my wings
you were more than just a teacher
you were my friend as well
and now that you’re gone I miss you
more than I can tell
it’s freezing here in heaven
hope you’re warm and happy raising shit in hell.

I can’t take this any longer
can’t hear another ringing bell
they call this a kingdom
but it’s just a prison cell
it’s freezing here in heaven
hope you’re warm and happy raising shit in hell
it’s freezing here in heaven
hope you morningstar is glowing bright in hell.


February 28th, 2010

"Inside Out"

Inside Out is a song very fitting for right now. Last weekend I went to a Landmark Education (very hesitant to put a link here) course. Basically, it was a 39 hour long episode of Oprah. People, some with real problems, some with made up ones, would get on stage, confesses it front of 150 people and then get really bad advice from some asshole called ‘The Leader’. I went up to call him on his shit. He did some serious mind-fucking on me and  I ended up some how confessing what a dick I’ve been for the past 5 years. His advice was to call everyone up that I feel I hurt, misused or abused over the years a confess to them my sins. When I sat back down I felt like someone had kicked me in the head with a kodiak boot. 15 minutes later I left… I was only half way through the course. I felt like shit for 5 days. I’m still recovering. This song wasn’t written out of that weekend but it could have been.

I’m a bit flat in this song and the last sung word is horrendous, but whatev. It’ll all get better as I post more songs. They all won’t be solo. I should have some guests soon.

I cannot love you when I’m inside out
I cannot feel you when I’m inside out
Inside out, Inside out
I twist I turn I try to learn but I’m inside out
I cannot feel you when I’m upside down

I cannot be with you when I’m upside down
Upside down, Upside down
I twist I turn I try to learn but I’m upside down
Stay with me and you will see, eventually

I’ll come around, I’ll get myself around
Stay with me


February 21st, 2010

"Take All I’ve Got"

Take All I’ve Got is my first post. I don’t think I’ve got the mix of the guitar and vocal quite right yet. I wrote the song last summer for a wedding that I was invited to sing at. I was actually the wife’s gift to her husband (not as kinky as it sounds). I figured the least I could do was write a corny love song. I thought the protagonist was totally pathetic. Now I think different. I wish I was more like him.

We can take it slow
Baby I don’t know
Just what pace you like
Guess I’ll find out right
Cause I don’t mind to wait
Forever’s not too late
Cause I’ve got the time
To wait till you are mine
You can take all I’ve got
Make me what I’m not
Take all I am all I am
For you I will change
From black to white and back again
Take all I’ve got, all I’ve got
For you I will change
From pop to punk and back again
Take all I’ve got, all I’ve got

How Can I make you see
You’re the one for me
I’d walk around the world
To make you my girl
And I’d give you my heart
Should yours fall apart
Commit any sin
For you to let me in
You can take all I’ve got
Make me what I’m not
Take all I am all I am
For you I will change
From church to jail and back again
Take all I’ve got, all I’ve got
For you I will change
From prep to goth and back again
Take all I’ve got, all I’ve got
For you I will change
My hair, my clothes, my face, my name
Take all I got all I’ve got.